Law of karma: as long as we eat we are eaten

working of karma: as long as we eat we are eaten… by ourselves… if we do not stop we self-annihilate…
being oblivious or intentionally ignoring this fact does not make it none-existent as karma is created by and within ourselves and is there until we stop repeating it allowing it to become none
digestive machine is ruthlessly loveless merciless and conceptual mind locked away The Essence that naturally feels love and compassion to all living and is reluctant to harm all seeds and becomings of seeds as it is self-inflicted harm, which is insanity
everything is a seed
our eating of what appears to be physical food is the most visible level of our eating ourself because that’s where most of us have our awareness arrested by habits and attachment, but as our awareness liberates from the process of conceptual mind, as we are able to be aware of the difference between conceptual mind and nature from which conceptual mind had separated itself…

“For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20

Buddha Shakyamuni also advised to seek the mustard seed to heal death…



Poem by Akira Sharunai

Vibrational ecstasy.
Shines from the hearts remedy.
Inside the being.
Is a shadowless entity.
Eternally alive.
As light of divine.
That knows no space.
And knows no time.
Pure beyond words.
Without egos curse.
As nature untouched.
With a soul filled verse.
Realizing through the human faculty.
Brings infinite peace.
As fear is ceased.
The love emanates.
From hearts inner way.
The truth and its flame.
Of light beyond shame.
Where forever is the one.
Of beings presence shone.
Birth and death.
Eternally cycling.
From the ageless of being.
To experiences dream.
Back and forth like the sway.
Of ocean waves.
Perfect is the flow.
When ego is let go.
Of its dominant hold.
On perceptions role.
Where it blinds from soul.
The being in its mould.
Believing physical is the only existence.
Egos dominance.
Causes resistance.
Creating pain.
And shame.
And suffering of blame.
So letting go is the key.
Of egos hold on insanity.
Drifting away.
On the breeze of the way.
Where light shines bright.
And perception clarifies.
Into bliss that ignites.
All the shadows that hide.
Inside sub consciousness spaces.
Locking mind in its mazes.
Of self suffering phases.
Letting go sets sail.
Down the seas of divinity.
Where the drop and the ocean.
Are one in synergy.
An avatar truth.
Of christ realized.
Perfection that lights.
Up the lies.
Into truth that never dies. 

Mystery of Life and Death

i am perpetual new-born

life or death : none-attachment or attachement

myth of Orpheus and Eurydice…
in folk lore one who turns to look back turns into a stone
in the bible (from Ellin biblos=a sheet or scroll of writing), story of Lot’s wife, who became a pillar of salt after she looked back at Sodom. biblos itself is looking back… me writing DOWN perceptions is looking back… acts of attachment…

from direct experience: it is impossible to be attached to reality(life) – we are attached to memory(death)… and yet what i wrote is a memory… a looking back…

Jiddu Krishnamurti invites not to accept, but to please observe together (important is TO OBSERVE – not to analyze – very important! if we observe the difference we will understand why):

attachment “to the name, to the form, my existence is attachment to that memory that i have gathered through all my life. where there is attachment, i recognize, observe… there is corruption. when i am attached to a belief, hoping in that attachment to that belief there will be certain security, both psychologically as well as physically, that attachment not only prevents further examination, but i am frightened to examine even… when i am greatly attached to something… to a person, to an idea, to an experience. so, corruption exists where there is an attachment. And one’s whole life is a movement within the field of the known.”

do we live or do we remember?
so The Spirit asked The Mind
and in it is the difference between Life and death
to be arrested in kaleidoscope of memories (by clinging to beliefs, knowledge, ideas, repetitive “habitual” behaviors and other impressions/perceptions of experiences already passed) is to be deprived of Life, which is death that eventually exhausts the body
we do not die at the moment of Soul departing from the body – we are partially dead (each to different degree) while we think we are alive and this is why our body is exhausted (ages and eventually becomes unable to support what we think is life)
very few have been able to stop closed circuit of remembrance and live and we call it to achieve immortality – to return to primordial breath…
do we live or do we remember?
Osho once said the words: “living spontaneously and embracing life” but he too had exhausted his body being unable to live up to the truth he had perceived
Hrih Shri Padmasambhava and Mahavatar Babaji are said to be immortal – ALIVE that is 
do we live or do we remember? it is not a question – it is a vigil – vigilance none-conceptual

and all these thoughts are perceptions and memories…
off to LIVE 


Personal experience of Jiddu Krishnamurti that changed his life

Paramahansa Yogananda spoke of importance of activation of medulla oblongata – “the mouths” of God; E’Asha Ashayana Arhayas, who is the speaker of The Guardians, related that humans have a seal on medulla oblongata that restricts us…
“In April 1909, Krishnamurti first met Charles Webster Leadbeater, who claimed clairvoyance. Leadbeater had noticed Krishnamurti on the Society’s beach on the Adyar river, and was amazed by the “most wonderful aura he had ever seen, without a particle of selfishness in it.”[a] Ernest Wood, an adjutant of Leadbeater’s at the time, who helped Krishnamurti with his homework, considered him to be “particularly dim-witted”.[13] Leadbeater was convinced that the boy would become a spiritual teacher and a great orator; the likely “vehicle for the Lord Maitreya” in Theosophical doctrine, an advanced spiritual entity periodically appearing on Earth as a World Teacher to guide the evolution of humankind…
Following his discovery by Leadbeater, Krishnamurti was nurtured by the Theosophical Society in Adyar. Leadbeater and a small number of trusted associates undertook the task of educating, protecting, and generally preparing Krishnamurti as the “vehicle” of the expected World Teacher…
In 1911 the Theosophical Society established the Order of the Star in the East (OSE) to prepare the world for the expected appearance of the World Teacher. Krishnamurti was named as its head, with senior Theosophists assigned various other positions…
At Ojai in August and September 1922 Krishnamurti went through an intense ‘life-changing’ experience.[41] This has been variously characterised as a spiritual awakening, a psychological transformation, and a physical reconditioning. The initial events happened in two distinct phases: first a three-day spiritual experience, and two weeks later, a longer-lasting condition that Krishnamurti and those around him referred to as the process. This condition recurred, at frequent intervals and with varying intensity, until his death.[42]
According to witnesses it started on 17 August 1922 when Krishnamurti complained of a sharp pain at the nape of his neck. Over the next two days the symptoms worsened, with increasing pain and sensitivity, loss of appetite, and occasional delirious ramblings. He seemed to lapse into unconsciousness, but later recounted that he was very much aware of his surroundings, and that while in that state he had an experience of “mystical union”. The following day the symptoms and the experience intensified, climaxing with a sense of “immense peace”.[43] Following — and apparently related to — these events[44] the condition that came to be known as the process started to affect him, in September and October that year, as a regular, almost nightly occurrence. Later the process resumed intermittently, with varying degrees of pain, physical discomfort and sensitivity, occasionally a lapse into a childlike state, and sometimes an apparent fading out of consciousness, explained as either his body giving in to pain or his mind “going off”.[d]
These experiences were accompanied or followed by what was interchangeably described as, “the benediction,” “the immensity,” “the sacredness,” “the vastness” and, most often, “the otherness” or “the other.”[46] It was a state distinct from the process.[47] According to Lutyens it is evident from his notebook that this experience of otherness was “with him almost continuously” during his life, and gave him “a sense of being protected.”[46] Krishnamurti describes it in his notebook as typically following an acute experience of the process, for example, on awakening the next day:
… woke up early with that strong feeling of otherness, of another world that is beyond all thought … there is a heightening of sensitivity. Sensitivity, not only to beauty but also to all other things. The blade of grass was astonishingly green; that one blade of grass contained the whole spectrum of colour; it was intense, dazzling and such a small thing, so easy to destroy …
This experience of the otherness would be present with him in daily events:
It is strange how during one or two interviews that strength, that power filled the room. It seemed to be in one’s eyes and breath. It comes into being, suddenly and most unexpectedly, with a force and intensity that is quite overpowering and at other times it’s there, quietly and serenely. But it’s there, whether one wants it or not. There is no possibility of getting used to it for it has never been nor will it ever be …”
“The process at Ojai, whatever its cause or validity, was a cataclysmic milestone for Krishna. Up until this time his spiritual progress, chequered though it might have been, had been planned with solemn deliberation by Theosophy’s grandees. … Something new had now occurred for which Krishna’s training had not entirely prepared him. … A burden was lifted from his conscience and he took his first step towards becoming an individual. … In terms of his future role as a teacher, the process was his bedrock. … It had come to him alone and had not been planted in him by his mentors … it provided Krishna with the soil in which his newfound spirit of confidence and independence could take root.”
…Over the next few years, Krishnamurti’s new vision and consciousness continued to develop. New concepts appeared in his talks, discussions, and correspondence, together with an evolving vocabulary that was progressively free of Theosophical terminology.[60] His new direction reached a climax in 1929, when he rebuffed attempts by Leadbeater and Besant to continue with the Order of the Star.
Krishnamurti dissolved the Order during the annual Star Camp at Ommen, the Netherlands, on 3 August 1929.[61] He stated that he had made his decision after “careful consideration” during the previous two years, and that:
I maintain that truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path whatsoever, by any religion, by any sect. That is my point of view, and I adhere to that absolutely and unconditionally. Truth, being limitless, unconditioned, unapproachable by any path whatsoever, cannot be organized; nor should any organization be formed to lead or coerce people along a particular path. … This is no magnificent deed, because I do not want followers, and I mean this. The moment you follow someone you cease to follow Truth. I am not concerned whether you pay attention to what I say or not. I want to do a certain thing in the world and I am going to do it with unwavering concentration. I am concerning myself with only one essential thing: to set man free. I desire to free him from all cages, from all fears, and not to found religions, new sects, nor to establish new theories and new philosophies.
(authority begins within ourselves and is then projected onto collective; authority is a conditioning of conceptual mind – artificial intelligence we had created within ourselves through attachment to perceptions of living experience – part of ourselves that mistakenly came to believe itself god mistaking accumulation of perceptions it came to be attached to for itself – all-knowing Living One.)
Krishnamurti invited to examine authority within ourselves to be free from it – to be ourselves freely – to know ourselves REALLY moment-to-moment instead of becoming accumulation of knowledge about ourselves (artificial intelligence)

Pride, “God’s throne”, Letter to J K Rowling author of Harry Potter chronicles

There is no deluding perception subtler and re.versing than pride.
from experience: pride arises simultaneously with mistaken perception of being in.divi.dual(in division dual)=forgetfulness of being allone – all living beings being unique expressions yet ALLONE – as waves in the ocean – as whispers in the air – as …
from experience: in psyche’s imagery pride appears as throne, chair, stool or other seat and as crown or metal headband.
In the first childhood dream C.G.Jung had related in memoir “From The Earliest Experiences of My Life”, he found himself in a meadow with a stone-lined hole in the ground. Finding some stairs, he descended into it and found himself in a chamber. Here there was a golden throne with what appeared to be a tree trunk of skin and flesh with an eye on top. He then heard his mother’s voice exclaim that this was the “man-eater”.
it’s been couple of weeks that i read this dream of C.G.Jung and i found myself thinking that there is no better way to word it than psyche worded it: pride is a “man-eater”
people who give their minds into possession of the authority of the bible believe that God sits on a throne (revelation 4) with all the horrific consequences for themselves and us as collective humanity:
a letter i wrote to J.K. Rowling:
Good Day Beloved J.K. Rowling!
Thank you very much for Harry Potter Chronicles!
I am writing because today I feel passionate-compassionate urge to speak about “small, naked child, curled on the ground, its skin raw and rough, flayed-looking, and it lay shuddering under a seat, where it had been left unwanted, stuffed out of sight, struggling for breath” (King’s Cross, Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows)
My recent discoveries in the language of the psyche: throne, armchair, chair, stool or seat are symbols of pride existing within us. The child left under a seat is US – THE ORIGINAL DIVINE INNOCENCE under a circumstance… Just today I had powerful experience of once again embracing with my heart with love and compassion the child left under a seat within our psyche. LOVE… The Child swiftly flew into the heart and cuddled in the heart space… and now that I am writing this and still loving the child grew angel wings! 😊 Innocence and gentleness and joy… UNION… ONEness… I cannot better describe the truth of loving reunion and genuine acceptance of most innocent part of ourself that was so abused…
There is a story of Pistis Sophia in Apochryphon of John: being sophia of thought(ennoia) she created once without consent of her maleness and then became ashamed of her child because being created “out-of-order”, though out of love and inspiration, the child appeared different. And Sophia became ashamed of the child and hid it under a seat.
I had experience concerning this story as well: regardless how unbecoming our creations may appear they are US – part of us – our children – and they are to be embraced with LOVE and compassion if we are to be true to our Nature. Otherwise we create unnatural separations within ourself acting out ancient mistake that may lead to great conflict within oneself. If the child abused is embraced with LOVE and deep compassion for the sufferings the child had experienced, the monster does not become!
On behalf of The Child
With LOVE in The Ocean and Sky of ONE!

MaHaRaTa and MaHaBhaRaTa

MaHaRaTa is the music of (12-11-10) dimensions of identity of primordial wakefulness:

(Nirvana (Ma) Buddha (HaRa) KRIst (Ta))

“Triadic Identity – The Avatar(The Dolar Matrix) – Harmonic Universe 4 composed of frequency bands from dimensions 10-11-12. Includes the Christiac Mind, the Buddhaic Mind, and the Nirvanic Mind. Collectively called the Metaconscious Mind. Represents the Galactic Mind Matrix (or “Solar Logos”)”

(from Voyagers I by Ashayana Deane, p.137 )

Syllable Bha in SansKRIt describes the states of manifestation as out.come of primordial process of wakefulness thus its meanings are: appearance , resemblance , likeness, semblance , delusion , error, light or a beam of light, lustre , splendour, a star , planet , asterism , lunar asterism or mansion

Manifestation of MaHaRaTa is MaHaBhaRaTa and one tragic event recorded for us is the poem by the same name: MaHaBhaRaTa

According to historical memories revealed through E’Asha Ashayana Arhayas (Speaker 1 of our Ancestors and Guardians) poem MaHaBhaRaTa was written as reminiscence of events known as Angelic Wars.

All character names in MaHaBhaRaTa poem are qualities of intelligence and perception. Yoga Sutras Patanjali teach that when perceptions/afflicted perceptions are no longer driving our actions we are ourself.

With truth of ONENESS of SELF expressing as qualities with natural perceptions (Yoga Sutras list 5: true perception, misperception, memory, imagination, deep slumber, memory) let us review the digression (true cause of des.ease is in the meaning of this word) that caused MaHaBhaRaTa of Angelic Wars reminiscence of which is in the form of poem MaHaBhaRaTa:

Brief historical revelation by Guardian Alliance of Melchizedek Cloister Emerald Order (found in the aforementioned Voyagers I, p. 162) of the cause of Angelic Wars that became known as Original Sin:

“Of the three, Interdimensional Association of Free Worlds (IAFW), Guardian Alliance and Azurite Universal Templar Security Team Universal Service organizations, the IAFW and the Azurite Universal Templar Security Team were created first 250 billion years ago, following a series of universally cataclysmic events that nearly destroyed our Time Matrix. During a period of that spans from 250 billion to 570 million years ago, a series of wars called the Lyran-Elohim wars, and later the Angelic wars, broke out in Density 4 pre-matter systems (dimensions 12-11-10 – MaHaRaTa). The Gold Order Seraphei-Seraphim reptilian Omicron Race from dimension 10 (Christiac mind) Lyra-Vega began to digress and set forth dominion conquest into the stellar systems of our Time Matrix; they became known as “The Fallen Seraphim”, the forefathers of the contemporary dimension 10 Orion-Drakonian Fallen Angelic Legion. Simultaneously, the Eemerald Order-Amethist Order hybrid Feline-Aquatic Ape Anyu Race from (dimension 11 Buddhiac mind) Lyra-Aveyon also suffered digression and petitioned the Elohei-Elohim Feline-hominid Christos Founder Race of dimension 12 (Nirvanic mind) Lyra-Aramaten to destroy the fallen Seraphim Omicron Race. When the Yanas (none-dimensionalised LIFE-field known as Geomancy(Yunasai Matrix) identity level called Eyeiani: 3 sound-fields mani.festing as 15-dimensional Time Matrix), Breneau Order Founder Races (dimensions 15-14-13 Rishi identity level) and the Elohei-Elohim of Aramatena (12 dimension Nirvanic mind) refused, opting for rehabilitation of the fallen Seraphim, the Anyu Race of dimension 11 (Buddhiac mind) Lyra-Aveyon attacked and destroyed Aramatena to gain control of Star-Gate 12. The Anyu’s destruction of Aramatena’s Star-Gate 12 is the event that became known as “the original sin”, as all life-forms, including the Density 4 (dimensions 12-11-10 MaHaRaTa) Christos Founders Races, became trapped in the Time Matrix until the dimension 12 Aramatena Star Gate-12 could be reconstructed. Consciousness could incarnate into our Time Matrix, but could not ascend to leave, while Aramatena Star Gate-12 remained damaged. The Anyu Race began their quest for of universal dominion with the intention of destroying all races but their own and claiming dominion of our Time Matrix. In “their” rebellion against the Christos Founder Races the Anyu Race of Density 4 Dimension 11(Buddhiac mind) adopted the name of the Annu, and became known as the Annu-Elohim fallen Angelic Legion; the forefathers of Annunaki avenger Race. The Annu-Elohim fallen Angelic Legion created (artificial act substituting be.coming) Sirian Annunaki race to destroy Christos Founders Race Guardian Angelic Oraphim-Human lineage upon its seeding 568 million years ago. Through the progressive and perpetual conflicts among Seraphim and Annu-Elohim fallen Angelic Legions, which began 250 billion years ago in density 4 Lyra, our Time Matrix was nearly destroyed.”

This morning i found glossary of character names from poem MaHaBhaRaTa. Remembering that each character is a quality of ONE Identity, it is wise to explore them within ourselves with healing purpose.

The very first listed in “A”-letter list is off-spring(son) of Arjuna and SubhadrA(fortune, welfare, very glorious or splendid or auspicious or fortunate): Abhimayu


intention to injure , insidiousness Ka1tyS3r.

high opinion of one’s self , self-conceit , pride, haughtiness

conception (especially an erroneous one regarding one’s self) Sa1h. &c

affection, desire


being equipped with Monier-Williams Sanskrit dictionary and the list of names from poem MaHaBhaRaTa it is beneficial to examine the qualities that cause digression, duality and des.ease of war within ONESELF known as “divide & conquer”

name of main character Arjuna (examined combining knowledge from Sanskrit and Freedom Teachings of Melchizedek Cloister Emerald Order):

The name Arjuna has among its meanings “white”, “clear” and “silver”. These are the colors associated with frequency of dimension 12 Nirvanic mind.

  • Vijaya (विजय) – always victorious, invincible or undefeated.
  • Dhanañjaya (धनञ्जय) – one who brings prosperity and wealth in the region wherever he goes to.
  • Savyasāchin (सव्यसाचिन्) – ambidextrous, only Arjuna is expert in using both hands equally in archery.
  • Shvethavāhana (श्वेतवाहन) – one with milky white horses mounted to his pure white chariot. Only Arjuna had this.
  • Parantapa (परन्तप) – one who concentrates the most.
  • Gāndīvadhanvan (गाण्डीवधन्वन्) – one who possessed the mighty bow named Gandiva which was created by Lord Brahma.
  • Gudākesha (गुडाकेश) – one who had control oversleeps; also one who has curly hair.
  • Bībhatsu (बीभत्सु) – one who always fights wars in a fair manner.
  • Kapidhvaja (कपिध्वज) – having the flag of Kapi (monkey) in his chariot. Lord Hanuman stayed on Arjuna’s flag during Kurukshetra war.
  • Kirītin (किरीटिन्) – one who wears the celestial diadem, Kiriti, presented by Lord Indra.
  • Gāndīvadhara (गाण्डीवधर) – Gandiva-holder.
  • Jishnu (जिष्णु) – triumphant.
  • Pārtha (पार्थ) – son of Pritha, also known as Kunti.
  • Phalguna (फाल्गुन) – born under the star Poorva Phalguni (Denebola in Leo).
  • Madhyapāndava (मध्यपाण्डव) – the middle of the Pandavas, younger than Yudhisthira and Bhima and elder of Nakula and Sahadeva


su.kha and duh.kha = health and des.ease

Sanskrit has very truthful words to stand for ease (happiness, joy, delight, felicity) and des.ease (suffering, pain): sukha and duhkha
duhkha is one of four noble truths revealed by Buddha and is usually translated as suffering, but translations fail to convey why duh.kha is suffering
the fundamental difference between su.kha & duh.kha is in the first syllable, while kha stands the same:

a cavity , hollow , cave , cavern , aperture
the hole in the nave of a wheel through which the axis runs RV. vacuity , empty space , air , ether , sky
brahma (the Supreme Spirit)
the anusvAra represented by a circle (bindu)
to beget , bring forth, good , excellent , right , virtuous , beautiful , easy , well , rightly , much , greatly , very , any , easily , willingly , quickly
to pain, draw anything out of another thing, to milk, take advantage of, to milk or squeeze out , extract, yield any desired object, to be drawn or extracted from

as seen, the difference between su- and duh- in sukha and duhkha is not merely difference between happiness and suffering, it is the difference between natural and unnatural(artificial) creation as is manifest in Organic and Inorganic Creation of Time Matrix and Phantom Matrix (known in Yoga as Nirvana and Samsara respectfully; known also as conflicting Angelic and Fallen Angelic states of beingness in messages of Melchizedek Cloister Emerald Order and Guardian Alliance)

meaning of su.kha and duh.kha is absolutely fundamental to understanding the nature of two great obstacles: ragA (lust, passion for, attachment to pleasurable, addiction) and dvesha (a.version to, hatred of, striking against) as worded in Yoga Sutras by Patanjali (when i read the original Sanskrit wording, i finally understood!!! and saw how translations fail to bring forth the true meaning of these two sutras unless we contemplate the profound depth of the original with our Essense and regard syllabic meaning of su.kha & duh.kha):

sutra 2.7 (definition of ragA)
su.kha anushayi ragA
sutra 2.8 (definition of dvesha)
duh.kha anushayi dvesha

anushayi = sequential attraction to, closely following, secondary accompaniment, resting on

ragA – inflammation, any feeling or passion , (esp.) love , affection or sympathy for , vehement desire of , interest or joy or delight in, a musical note , harmony , melody(musical mode or order of sound or formula ; bharata enumerates 6 , viz. bhairava , kauzika , hindola , dIpaka , zrI-rAga , and megha , each mode exciting some affection)

dvesha – hatred, dislike, enmity to, aversion, hostility, above(!)

(duh.kha is when we squeeze out of our self and domineer our own Nature instead of allowing to freely be and spontaneously manifest(su.kha), which is unnatural, and this is why duh.kha is interpreted as pain and pain-infliction while sukha is interpreted as joy and happiness; but (in translation) simply substituting the true meaning of duh.kha with word pain fails to convey the understanding of why duh.kha is painful and why it is suffering: so important to read Sanskrit texts with guidance of our Essense equipped with Sanskrit dictionary to enlighten into meanings of each syllable and the whole composition of them into a word and sutra)…

the root of duh.kha is in a.vidya – fundamental forgetfulness of the truth

sutra 2.5 (what is a.vidya – forgetfulness, not-knowing, ignorance(from to ignore))

antiya ashuchi duhkha anatmasu nitya shuchi sukha atman khyatih avidya

(mistaking “anitya ashuchi duhkha anatmasu” for “nitya shuchi sukha atman” is avidya)

here is word-by-word translation as given in commentaries to Yoga Sutras by Swami J (, but i benefited a lot by looking up each word in Sanskrit-English dictionaries studying them with guidance of The Essence)

antiya = non-eternal, impermanent, ephemeral
ashuchi = impure
duhkha = misery, painful, sorrowful, suffering
anatmasu = non-self, non-atman
nitya = eternal, everlasting
shuchi = pure
sukha = happiness, pleasurable, pleasant
atman = Self, soul
khyatih = taking to be, supposing to be, seeing as if
avidya = spiritual forgetting, ignorance, veiling, nescience

(a hint to words shuchi and ashuchi came to me from being native Russian speaker as Russian derives from Sanskrit: shuchi co-resonates with Russian word for One, who truly is=сущий, thus ashuchi is that, which is not One who truly is=не сущий (which stands for all perceptions/reflections/artificial constructs(imitations) of mind that at one moment separated and opposed itself to its Source)


Much Love in The Ocean of Oneness!